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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Will Suboxone SAVE MANKIND?: Trusting Again
Will Suboxone SAVE MANKIND?: Trusting Again: "If you have been able to meet a physician and have been provided a prescription for suboxone then you should be able to sustain some stability in your life. This is time you can use to find a therapist,a job, find new friends, anything to start a new life. Now that you don't have to spend each waking moment looking for a fix, money for a fix, you can concentrate on a routine to get your life back. It will take time.
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Monday, July 12, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
3 Kinds of People
The other might I came to the realization of death, a universally puzzling thing,
fearful, yet for some it is comforting. Those with that kinda faith are deluded and in denial. I am speaking of those with blind faith.
I was home alone thinking that most adults my age (44) must have considered the dillema of time, facing each human with equality in affects upon their persons. I am in this FIRST group who are coming to terms with the undeniable reality that our "souls" will no longer be renting your carcass, thus rendering you dead, dead, dead. Now the group number 2 people are much more like the "me" through my late twenties. Up until this time death and old age were light years in front of me. But as the years passed I became aware that each year I must slow down as I may have missed a week here or there. Now the years are gaining the momentum that tells me I need to be at peace with myself, My beliefs, each day a blessing. No longer can I say if I doubled my age I would stil not be 60!
Group 3 is there, living there last few years. Some may be happy, upbeat, others are unable to come to terms with their age and approaching death. Those that are rich enough can get frozen like Walt Disney, but who knows if Cryonics will ever work anyway. My favorite type of person to befriend
fearful, yet for some it is comforting. Those with that kinda faith are deluded and in denial. I am speaking of those with blind faith.
I was home alone thinking that most adults my age (44) must have considered the dillema of time, facing each human with equality in affects upon their persons. I am in this FIRST group who are coming to terms with the undeniable reality that our "souls" will no longer be renting your carcass, thus rendering you dead, dead, dead. Now the group number 2 people are much more like the "me" through my late twenties. Up until this time death and old age were light years in front of me. But as the years passed I became aware that each year I must slow down as I may have missed a week here or there. Now the years are gaining the momentum that tells me I need to be at peace with myself, My beliefs, each day a blessing. No longer can I say if I doubled my age I would stil not be 60!
Group 3 is there, living there last few years. Some may be happy, upbeat, others are unable to come to terms with their age and approaching death. Those that are rich enough can get frozen like Walt Disney, but who knows if Cryonics will ever work anyway. My favorite type of person to befriend
Saturday, July 10, 2010
When Is Enough Enough?
I will quit tomorrow. I must have said that a thousand times. But what does it take for one to decide they have had enough? Some call it their rock bottom. Was it the time I saw my best friend Andy pour hot grease on his arm so he could go to the E.R. and score? When I saw Andy in a casket, and I sobbed uncontrollably and had to leave the funeral? When I wondered how long I would be in prison if -------- found out that I was ------ from them? My addiction took a turn for the worse when I my company went under. I was left with a $150.000 mortgage, a new wife, my two kids and her two step kids. I burned through my 401K in 12 months. $97000.00 down the tubes. My bottom came when my sons came in my room as I sat sobbing uncontrollably, knowing I was going to have to go some place and I mean then. It was Christmas day and my sons held me and told me they loved me. THEY gave me the will to fight back, to get help. To admit I was in over my head and couldn't fix this one on my own. I was introduced to suboxone on Dec. 26, 2005. I believe it helped save my life. It took alot more than just the medicine, but I was willing to do anything. I hope that maybe even one person will read this and realize there is hope. There is redemption. Ultimatley it is up to each individual to decide.
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Friday, July 9, 2010
All Things Wildly Considered Very Unusual Blog!
I just read a blog from by a man not fifty miles South of my hometown. He seems to be on a crusade against pain management doctors in Portsmouth,Ohio area. I hope that Frank isn't supplying new names and places for people to go get more pills. It is an epedemic in Southern Ohio. I didn't realize how many active mills there still are around here. I took exception with his adding Dr. McGinnis to his list. I found him to be caring, a fellow 12 stepper, and a NO Bull_____ type of guy. I respected him as a doctor and still do.
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